Caitlin's fear.

The novel Dreamland. So much to say but so little time.  I started reading Dreamland about two weeks ago, and I must say the character Caitlin is one awkwardly unique girl. Let me tell you something, she is one of the most bravest person throughout the book, why you may ask. she loved a man, a man that mistreated her and  she never let him go.  her simple life of being the youngest child in her family was rough to come against to her older sister. Yet when Caitlin's sister left and their mother was brought into tears and heartbroken. Caitlin took part into her sisters " perfect" life. Starting with cheer leading and on.
   Caitlin talks about how she met the most ungodly amazing guy at the gas station. But like in life we can know everything perfect comes with flaws. He wasn't much of your typical guy that would say the wrong thing and  just get dumped. he abused Caitlin at the toughest times throughout the book. You can tell how she felt and how her emotions came in. She wasn't just scared but she was just a girl confused and didn't know what to do but love him dearly. I mean how many girls do you know would stay witha  guy that would physically hurt her.
       If I was Rogerson I would have had a little white lie turned into a big deal. If i were him I would think it's just an accident but not after the first time it's out of control and I'd have nothing to worry about but, I'm cluttered and confused and just keep going with it as if it was a dirty secret  that will never be scared. This wasn't something like a rumor at school that everyone would spill the peas about. this was  abusive relationship, and very unhealthy. If Rogerson had his side. It would be as if nothing happened and she would be making it all up. but soon  karma can get you back as I always say. You realize something is being done. I will not say, why? Because the suspension may ruin the ending but If i were Caitlin i would have done something. I would never be treated such pain and love someone the same time. it would seem impossible. 
     If I could change the ending to the novel. It would be the way I pictured it. As I see it, the couple together somewhere far, Caitlin waiting to make a move to run away from her. she would have give him the pain she gave her and she would just run at all might back home packing as if there was no tomorrow.  Writing the heartfelt sorry note to her mother and  next move was to start a new life somewhere far from the troubles where no one would know where to look. And she would get her happy ending.

As life goes on

    I never realized how life goes by so fast and it frightens me sometimes looking back how fast the years of school have gone by. I literally almost out of middle school and onto highschool. Oh lord, I better be prepared but I'm sure i can manage. As i read in books or see in those dramatically teen movies, I notice that they have a tough time through life and how they deal with situations in their high school years, but when I go i am going to make it the best years i can. I am going to put my head held high down the hall ways. because when I am old and looking back at my past I don't want to remember how i spent my time being all depressed and just negative about everything because of some silly mistake or problem.
    I know that i am really excited for high school, but scared at the same time. the feeling is well mixed. but i overall want my future to be successful. May sound a bit crazy to already be talking about my life and future and what will/could happen. I have no idea what direction i want to go in. What i do know is i am 14 years old and My expectation is to have as much fun  i can before i need to " mature"  if that is what they call it. My description of mature is acting very adult like and all about work and no time for fun. Crazy I know. But as my life goes on day by day I will never let it be a plur nor same like every other day. I need to make every day different and unique no matter if i have 5 minutes left in the day. I usually tell myself how life is going to happen in my mind but  is more the opposite.
      Life is very challenging and has it's ways of getting to us but I know as i grow i need to pull myself together. My point of what I am saying is  when I am older i can see myself being everything i wanted to be. And knowing that i can do that gives me all the strength i need right now. I am in the eighth grade and nor should be worrying about  collage or any of those ideas. but i like to think of it. gives me the chills but the good kind. But when i am older I want to make a difference. I am not sure what difference. but I know in the world i want to change something. For others, for places, or anything i can change. I want to know how it feels to help someone the way people help me get back on my feet these days. Today it's hard to find the nicest people to be honest. but  you never notice what's infront of you I guess you could say.
                   In this world I have a lot of choices out there for myself, but as it comes down we all know the timing is off sided.  You either have to pick a very change life situation in like a day, but on the other hand you have the most simple choices that never matter. All I am saying is that the life I have right now is just something still growing and im pretty proud that I can have highs and lows but still make through this year.

    

Something i love

Out of my whole 14 years of existing on this planet, I have had my ups and downs, but the thing is i needed something to entertain myself. Something that would make life enjoy able. I know that this may sound weird but i have a crazy obsession of reading horror books. Crazy, I know. But  i hate horror movies and anything that has to deal with murder or thrilling  and i can't deal with   picturing bodies dead and lying there. trust me.
     I don't know how to explain why I like them, but when I read the kind of books, it gets me interested on who the murder could be, or  why the reason they did the. it get's my heart going. I just need to continue to read, all the other books  I have to read about with groups. they lose my focus. If you gave me any book based off a horror movie, I would read it. I just love having this feeling of  who i think the murder is or what the problem is.
       A book I am reading right now is, " I Know What you did Last Summer" and i am in love with it, from the movie it makes the book  look so much better, there's more to the book it tells you. like the situation and the scenes. It is completely different. but i like to compare the books to movies it gives me the idea to pick what i like better about this or that. Even though I can't stand when it gets to a good part and you can't put down the book, but you have to, and i just love that i want to finsih reading the part/chapter.
        When i watch a horror movie, i just can't watch it, I am one of those people who can't deal with people popping out of the blue at any minute and etc. but i love to just watch because i need to know what will happen. it goes just the same with books, because I have such a wild imagination  and so when I read, I image me   as the main character and in the situation. May seem weird, but that's why i like to read them so much. they make me think about what the possibilities there is from my point of imaging what is happening. If someone ever gets a mysterious/ murder book. I would read it first to tell you if I enjoyed it. I want to be the source  of those kind of books. It's like an adventure to me, a Qwest to finish as much as I can.
                 Everyone knows i don't read. I'll be honest. i never do but after this year really when i got more into my English class and heard about all these books it made me think i neeed to step up a new schedule. I need to read  more, but something I will enjoy and keep me wanting more to read, When i read, Draw to Dark,  I really liked it surprisingly. and I wanted more.
 

Character Description

Character- Susie

If Susie were to walk into a room,  no one to look at her, no one to see, because she is dead. But before her death she was a jumpy girl, she loved to make a scene and capture the moment. She always had something to entertain herself. She was full of energy.

          Susie was an awkward girl, she always make a situation harder than it needed to be, but in a good way, if she had to be any object I’d say a camera, why? Because she always needed to be there and image that moment and make it a memory. But now she sees her family deal with her death, and she is brave to watch them go through life.

A Prediction on Touching Spirit Bear

     The book , Touching Spirit Bear by Mikaelsen.

As I had read the book, Touching Spirit Bear, I felt like I could make some good predictions on this novel. A few actually.

One of first predictions based off the book is Cole becoming a new person, What I mean as in a “ new person” is as I was half way towards the book, and how he was beaten and then set back to the island I had thought to myself, if I look carefully on the cover maybe he would Have some sort of  moment seeing a ghost and finding the good in life to change what he thinks or speaks in his mind. He would change everything and take action for al what he has done from the start.

Another predication I have is that I thought as I was not in the middle but more begging but I thought that when Cole ended upon the island he was going to be there forever and when we found the spirit bear he would become a bear, sounds strange but I thought that if he can’t treat nature kindly the way he would want to be, then he would become with it.

I really did like this book but if I could change it I would change it to my second prediction. I like mine more better because it doesn’t deal with just staying in the woods and something that would happen I want something that you never thought would happen. Or something that would be mysterious/ magical.

Garvey from Touching Spirit Bear

Garvey is Cole’s parole officer and his role in the  novel is he is trying to help Cole be a better person and see that what he has done he needs to be taught a lesson in life and how to handle it. Garvey is suppose to help Cole of his behavior and he has given him quotes about life and how Cole can change his attitude. I think that Garvey is one important character, because he makes a change in Coles life throughout the book

The Cause and Effect to Willy Freeman

The authors note about the book. War Comes to Willy Freeman.  Has a cause and effect with Willy and fighting for what she wants.

          Willy is a black slave in the 1700’s, she is wither father during the British war pretending to be a boy just to help her father, but as she watches him go into the war he was killed and as soon as  Willy had went home she found out her mother wasn’t anywhere to be found, but was going to be at New York as a slave,

          Willy started out just being a black slave, but when her father went off to war she pretended she was a boy. But as soon as her father died, things

took a turn for the worst. Willy was on her own, scared, and yet she was brave at the same time.  She was trying to travel to find her mother.  You would ask yourself why would she pretend to be a boy. Well she needed to so she wouldn’t get into trouble and in the beginning it all explains why and the rights for them.

          I have to say that as I was reading the novel I came across how different my thoughts were. I thought when I picked up the book it would have been just a girl telling the story, but you see how the war effected her life. Over all the cause of the problem that was occurring was how she was helping her father prepare for war ad something didn’t go according to plan. And it effected her when her father died and her mother was missing, which made a more of a problem.