As life goes on

    I never realized how life goes by so fast and it frightens me sometimes looking back how fast the years of school have gone by. I literally almost out of middle school and onto highschool. Oh lord, I better be prepared but I'm sure i can manage. As i read in books or see in those dramatically teen movies, I notice that they have a tough time through life and how they deal with situations in their high school years, but when I go i am going to make it the best years i can. I am going to put my head held high down the hall ways. because when I am old and looking back at my past I don't want to remember how i spent my time being all depressed and just negative about everything because of some silly mistake or problem.
    I know that i am really excited for high school, but scared at the same time. the feeling is well mixed. but i overall want my future to be successful. May sound a bit crazy to already be talking about my life and future and what will/could happen. I have no idea what direction i want to go in. What i do know is i am 14 years old and My expectation is to have as much fun  i can before i need to " mature"  if that is what they call it. My description of mature is acting very adult like and all about work and no time for fun. Crazy I know. But as my life goes on day by day I will never let it be a plur nor same like every other day. I need to make every day different and unique no matter if i have 5 minutes left in the day. I usually tell myself how life is going to happen in my mind but  is more the opposite.
      Life is very challenging and has it's ways of getting to us but I know as i grow i need to pull myself together. My point of what I am saying is  when I am older i can see myself being everything i wanted to be. And knowing that i can do that gives me all the strength i need right now. I am in the eighth grade and nor should be worrying about  collage or any of those ideas. but i like to think of it. gives me the chills but the good kind. But when i am older I want to make a difference. I am not sure what difference. but I know in the world i want to change something. For others, for places, or anything i can change. I want to know how it feels to help someone the way people help me get back on my feet these days. Today it's hard to find the nicest people to be honest. but  you never notice what's infront of you I guess you could say.
                   In this world I have a lot of choices out there for myself, but as it comes down we all know the timing is off sided.  You either have to pick a very change life situation in like a day, but on the other hand you have the most simple choices that never matter. All I am saying is that the life I have right now is just something still growing and im pretty proud that I can have highs and lows but still make through this year.